Blue Dress Meditation

by Lottie McCrindell

In broad blue brushstrokes, Blue Dress Meditation is a poem about memory, desire and longing, and the ways dresses, bodies and art-making hold, process and transform these emotions. It began with a dream I had in August of an enormous blue dress spreading across the horizon. From that dream, other memories and imaginings of blue dresses gathered. A single stanza could not contain them all, so I pieced together the poem with asterisks, or ‘stitches’.  The lines ‘Blue dresses of gigantic feelings/ girls swimming in tidal sea pools’, were inspired by Shelly Goldsmith’s Dresses for Giants exhibition in Margate, which I visited in September 2022, just after finishing my Masters — a liminal period between full-time education and stepping into working life. The scale, colour and display of Shelly’s dresses left a magical, lasting impression onme.

My undergraduate degree was in English Literature at Cambridge and my Masters was in Printed Textiles at the University for the Creative Arts, where Shelly is a Reader in Textiles. Since the age of 17, I have had a pressing interest in the intersection of literature and fashion, text and textile, but it was only after my Masters that I began to explore this through my own poetry and curation.  Feelings of nostalgia, desire and longing have become more intense for me since I finished my Masters. Life shifts quickly after university: friends drift or move away and grief and adult concerns emerge. Alongside this, I have found a spirituality in art, fashion and poetry and I feel deep gratitude for my mum, who introduced me to this world, and for the community of makers and friends I have met and collaborated with along the way.

My meditation on blue dresses is ongoing. I wrote this poem between Christmas and New Year, finishing it on the first full moon of 2026, 3rd January. When I sent it to Alexia, she shared she had recently met Shelly on the Gemini supermoon in December and had also visited Dresses for Giants, which influenced her move to the seaside. If anyone has their own blue dress murmurations, I would love to hear them…

Blue Dress Meditation

Tonight, the moon is blue like my dress

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There sleeps a dream

on a dress of midnight blue

its body resting on cyanotype pansies

the irises of three open eyes

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Last night, I dreamt of a blue dress

enormous across the horizon

blue enough to hold the sky

blue enough to remember every interior

and every exterior at once

It was not hanging or worn

but spreading, the way water spreads

the way memory does when it forgets its edges

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An asterisk is a stitch

a place where memory tightens

and tentatively holds

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A woman sits on her bedroom floor

arranging blue fragments of dress

She lays and layers them like paint

before stitching them together

to form a spirited surface

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Blue dresses of gigantic feelings

girls swimming in tidal sea pools

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For three years, I wore an ultramarine dress of such intense longing

the dye seeped into and stained my skin

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I walk past our old house

look through the bedroom window for my baby blue dress

but it reflects only the sky

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A blue silk dress with white polka dots floats through the air

its printed pattern dissolving

into light cloud cover

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Off a steel structure resembling a tree

she suspends blue clothes from her closet

She titles the installation Blue Days

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Think of her dancing in a layered blue dress

how the fabric absorbs, reflects and scatters light

how your eye receives this light

how we receive each other

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Trying to understand the depth of this deepening blue

her body cascading, waterfalling

in a blue dress

Lottie McCrindell is a fashion and textile poet and curator. She is the founder of TEXTUS, having co-curated its inaugural exhibition, TEXTUS: in-between text and textile (2023) and solo curated its second exhibition, HOUSE OF HABERDASH (2025), both at the Torriano Meeting House, London. Collaboration sits at the heart of her curatorial and poetic practices and she regularly works with fashion designers, writing poems responding to their collections for their runway shows. Her most recent poetry-dress collaboration with Zandra Rhodes was exhibited as part of Dress Poetics at the Nymphenburg Palace, Munich. 
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